It's 4:59 AM
I am wide awake right now at 4:59 A.M. Why, you may ask? I don't have the 6 A.M. shift at The Gap, actually. I'm wide awake because I'm not tired; I physically cannot sleep. I've been stressed the past week or so and as a result my sleeping habits (or lack thereof) have been affected.
I've worked every day this week and much longer shifts than last week when I also worked every day but only three or three and a half hours at a time. I feel like all I've been doing this week is running in circles, but not actually getting anywhere. I hope some of you can appreciate how frustrating and exhausting this feeling is.
Being wide awake in the middle of the night can sometimes be helpful; I can get a lot of work done at night when everyone else in the house is fast asleep. I sort papers and file things away; I clean my desk and post my old textbooks for sale online.
And sometimes, lying awake at night means simply lying there...awake...all night. My mind drifts from thinking about people I haven't spoken to in a while, to listing locations I should add to my list of places to see, to reminding myself of all of the books I need to buy for class, to wondering if I have any regrets in life... Wandering can be dangerous for a mind, especially at 5:03 A.M.
I've worked every day this week and much longer shifts than last week when I also worked every day but only three or three and a half hours at a time. I feel like all I've been doing this week is running in circles, but not actually getting anywhere. I hope some of you can appreciate how frustrating and exhausting this feeling is.
Being wide awake in the middle of the night can sometimes be helpful; I can get a lot of work done at night when everyone else in the house is fast asleep. I sort papers and file things away; I clean my desk and post my old textbooks for sale online.
And sometimes, lying awake at night means simply lying there...awake...all night. My mind drifts from thinking about people I haven't spoken to in a while, to listing locations I should add to my list of places to see, to reminding myself of all of the books I need to buy for class, to wondering if I have any regrets in life... Wandering can be dangerous for a mind, especially at 5:03 A.M.
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