Twenty-One
I realized today that there are only six months and three days until my twenty-first birthday. Back in September I decided that I am too comfortable in my life, that I never try anything new. So I made a "Birthday List" (rather than a "Bucket List"). Checking my list today, I realized that I have accomplished only two things on my list. Pathetic, I know.
I could get defensive, lie and say that I've been too preoccupied. I've had illness and deaths in the family, classes, friend and family drama, work, study abroad applications, final exams, then the holiday season. Truth is though, I've been putting it off. It seems like that's what I've always done: put things off. It's easier for me to focus on the hard things in my life that have to deal with other people, rather than deal with my own fears and insecurities.
Accomplishing all of the things on that silly list not only requires me to go outside my usual comfort zone, it also forces me to focus on myself, even if it's only for a few minutes at a time. So from now until July 13th, I am going to push myself to complete that list!
I could get defensive, lie and say that I've been too preoccupied. I've had illness and deaths in the family, classes, friend and family drama, work, study abroad applications, final exams, then the holiday season. Truth is though, I've been putting it off. It seems like that's what I've always done: put things off. It's easier for me to focus on the hard things in my life that have to deal with other people, rather than deal with my own fears and insecurities.
Accomplishing all of the things on that silly list not only requires me to go outside my usual comfort zone, it also forces me to focus on myself, even if it's only for a few minutes at a time. So from now until July 13th, I am going to push myself to complete that list!
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